Oh hey a post! It's been a while...

WHOA it's been forever since I've posted (forever reads as "2 weeks"). Sorry about that. School is OUT, life is EASY, I'm woefully UNEMPLOYED and have been trying to work on that. I'm staying in San Fran for the summer to get my audition things in order and while working with my teacher is great, the job market is less so. That and I have an opera I'm doing and cross country trips for family and weddings and so on, so my schedule is just lousy. I'm just hoping to find a lovely employer who will overlook all that. :)

As for "weight loss" it's still going pretty well. I think some of it is going well by luck because my tracking track record has not been so strong as of late. Here's how this seems to go recently: I track fairly consistently through the weekend, when something will happen like a party (parties) or drinks or delicious recital receptions, and somehow I will end the weekend with all of my weekly extra points gone. Fine, not a big deal. But THEN come Monday and Tuesday I just...don't track. Because in my head, if I'm going to go over, I'm going to go over no matter what. I just do the best I can on Monday and Tuesday since I know I don't have much of a points net. And then Wednesday, WOOSH! All reset and I start tracking again.

This is not a good thing. This is a slippery slope that will lead to me just not tracking at all. I know this. And I'd like to stay on the tracking thing, it's working really well for me, but it gets hard when I'm eating things that aren't prepackaged or that I didn't prepare or that come from a delicious recital reception. I just don't KNOW how many points they are, so I'm estimating anyway, so is what I'm writing down at all helpful or accurate? My main gripe with this whole tracking thing.

I've gotten better at "listening to my body", which sounds SOOOO San Francisco of me, but here's what I mean. If I'm hungry, I can eat something. If I'm craving something really specific I try to pin point what that is rather than eat around it. Also, if I'm not hungry, I don't eat. This seems stupidly obvious, but here's what I used to do. Even if I came back from some party where I ate my weight in snacky food, I still felt obligated to eat a "real" dinner. I felt like I needed protein or something. I don't know what my thinking is, but I would make sure that I had "dinner" even though I had eaten plenty of food and didn't really even want dinner. So now, I just eat until I'm full. That might not be the most balanced diet, dinner might end up being a cupcake (like it was on Easter), but if I'm not hungry I don't see the reason to force-feed myself more calories in search of a "balanced" diet. Sometimes it's just not that balanced, but it all balances out in the end. Right? Let's hope so.

In other news, I can't seem to get my arms to change size and this bothers me. I took my measurements today, and my waist and hips like to keep melting down (yay!) but my arms are just as stupidly flabby as ever. I don't know what to do with them. I guess they're just slow to catch up? Late for the shrinking party? Eventually they'll go down? I do some arm exercises when I'm at the gym, yet still, flab. Sigh.

And speaking of gym, I actually have been pretty bad about going. Once I'm not at school every day, I just want to stay in my house and do the stuff I've neglected here (cleaning, organizing, reading the "Sookie Stackhouse" books...). I did a nice run/walk around my neighborhood which was both freezing and largely uphill, but satisfying. So in conclusion, the gym needs to come back into my life. And this was a very long post, so maybe just pretend that for the past 2 weeks I had a bunch of small posts. It all works out.